Is it sad how every night I close my eyes and think of you ?
I close my eyes and imagine your arms around me. Holding me close. I imagine waking up with you. Spending the day with you.
I close my eyes every night and try to recall every moment we were together. Trying to change it, how it should have been. How I should have been.
I should have never pushed you away.
I should have never lied to you.
I should have never made you feel second best.
But I did. I made every situation hard, complicated… messy!
There’s nothing I can do now, you won’t believe a word I say. Cos all I ever did was lie.