You have something special inside you, never change it.
Thank you …
If that is true then why am I alone.
Why am I fighting for one guy to stay and another one to actually want more with me.
Why do you see the special in me but they don’t, maybe they do but they don’t want to nourish it, they don’t want to be part of it.
Why can’t you be someone else telling me this. I have so many questions why, but also on the other hand, I just don’t care.
I don’t want to be a part of it anymore, I don’t want to feel or think. I want to pass my days with no extra thoughts than I need, I feel myself being like that, not caring about anyone, including myself.
I am okay with being used and using others. I know.. It’s going to catch up on me and I will find myself in a ball, crying my eyes out wondering why I feel so much pain in my heart and why no one is here to hold me just to tell me everything is going to be okay. To hold my hand and tell me that I am going to be okay.
I am smiling everyday, but I know inside I am dying, I am broken.