I fucked up.
I made a total mess and I feel awful.
I’ve started seeing this guy, it’s been 2 months now. I know him, I know he is a fuck boy and I used to trust him, but as the days passed I started losing my trust.
He still uses his tinder, he is still encouraging and speaking with other girls so I trapped him. I set up a fake account and trapped him.
One thing led to another and he found out it was me. I’m sorry that I done it not that I got caught, I know myself and I know I would have probably told him the truth.
He was flirting with ‘her’ and I could feel my heart sink. I feel like I’m not what he really wants and that there is something more out there for him. He told me that he knew it was me and that’s they reason he was flirting so much and wanting to meet, but I don’t believe it. I think that was just a get out cause.
But here I am blaming myself for screwing things up, I’ve agreed to move on and try to pick things up again but he is the one acting more hurt than me. I understand it, but it also feels like he don’t take any responsibility.
I just hope things can go back to how they were. I am hoping that I haven’t ruined this completely. I hope we can fix it.