Bye Bye Lover

I see the way you look at me, you don’t look at me with admiration or love, you look at me with lust. Your feelings for me are totally sexual so why do I continue to be drawn to you.

I have a guy that looks at me as if I am perfect, when clearly I am not. He looks at me as if I am the most beautiful girl he has ever set eyes on, so why do I want a guy that I know will never feel that way towards me.

Why am I attracted to the arse hole guy. The guy that knows what to say and what to do to get all the girls.

I love sweet guys, but this guy he is too sweet, too kind, too good and he deserves better, really he does. He deserves someones full attention and I have to let him go to find that.

I know how I feel, I know that I feel like he isn’t my boyfriend, I feel disconnected and maybe a little time needs to pass to feel that connection again, I don’t know, what I do know is that I have to let him go.

I have to walk away, even though I really don’t want to.I have to do the right thing, for the both of us. I need to feel free again. To clear my mind, to clear my soul. To love life again, to love me again.

I am lost and confused and I know I need to be alone at this time of my life, to just go and have fun, maybe get a little drunk, forget about guys.

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Close your eyes

Stop,

Stop what you are doing and just close your eyes.

Do you hear that?

That’s your breath, feeling your chest rise and fall. Air entering your lungs. Slowly feeling your body relax.

We are alive.

All of us.

We are one. We all breathe, we all think, we all feel. We are all the same.

not looks wise, or personality wise. We don’t even have the same opinions or thoughts, but we are the same. We are all one mind, one body, one soul.

So?

Why don’t we help one another, be kind to one another, love one another. Pick each other up, see the pain others feel, Sympathise.

We pass thousands of people everyday and we don’t even look. We don’t want to, we are all too consumed with ourselves that we don’t want to see the suffering of others, only ourselves.

But ! Wouldn’t it be amazing if we could help each other out, hold each others hands and live in harmony. Picking not only ourselves up but others also.

How wonderful our world would be if we truly were one.