I see the way you look at me, you don’t look at me with admiration or love, you look at me with lust. Your feelings for me are totally sexual so why do I continue to be drawn to you.
I have a guy that looks at me as if I am perfect, when clearly I am not. He looks at me as if I am the most beautiful girl he has ever set eyes on, so why do I want a guy that I know will never feel that way towards me.
Why am I attracted to the arse hole guy. The guy that knows what to say and what to do to get all the girls.
I love sweet guys, but this guy he is too sweet, too kind, too good and he deserves better, really he does. He deserves someones full attention and I have to let him go to find that.
I know how I feel, I know that I feel like he isn’t my boyfriend, I feel disconnected and maybe a little time needs to pass to feel that connection again, I don’t know, what I do know is that I have to let him go.
I have to walk away, even though I really don’t want to.I have to do the right thing, for the both of us. I need to feel free again. To clear my mind, to clear my soul. To love life again, to love me again.
I am lost and confused and I know I need to be alone at this time of my life, to just go and have fun, maybe get a little drunk, forget about guys.